fi2ittei2 (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} fi2ittei2) wrote,@ 2004-09-16 00:39:00 |
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w0nder
Kudos to twistedsisters_haunt for motivating me to update...
anyway on with the show...or lack thereof.
Life is going great. I couldn't ask for more. A loving boyfriend, a wonderful family and friends, on the brink of graduation, as well as Knott's Scary Farm. Enter the month of NO SLEEP YAY.
But lately, I find myself, DOWN for some reason. I haven't quite pinpointed it, but have narrowed it down to too much worky, or not knowing what I am going to do once I graduate. You see, the dream is to have a good ol' 9-5 job straight out of college. I'd love that. I'm actually looking at the College Leadership Program that Kinko's offers. It's basically a management training program that sounds wonderful.
UNFORTUNATELY, there's a catch. Say that I was accepted into this. It would mean two whole months away from California in Dallas, Texas. I will miss my family, my friends, the California life, and most of all, my beloved Loc Loc. It would be hard, but I feel my relationship with everyone that I care about is strong enough to where that bond would just grow stronger if I left for a little bit.
So in conclusion, I seem to be worried about my future. I know I'm on the right track, so why do I find myself doubting...myself at times. Am I scared to move up in the world? Do I fear failure? Am I scared of growing up? Ya, it's all three.
A man a few weeks ago approached me at the gas station while I was on my way to work. I was of course in my Kinko's get up looking all professional. Me thinking the worst, thought he was some crazy old guy just looking to talk. But as we conversed, he started asking me what my major was, how I liked my job blah blah. He concluded with him saying he owned an e-commerce site and giving me his business card, telling me to call him when I'm ready. Now stupid me should have called him a few days later, but hesitated, scared of possible change. At the latest though, I will give him a call after I am done with school.
Kudos to twistedsisters_haunt for motivating me to update...
anyway on with the show...or lack thereof.
Life is going great. I couldn't ask for more. A loving boyfriend, a wonderful family and friends, on the brink of graduation, as well as Knott's Scary Farm. Enter the month of NO SLEEP YAY.
But lately, I find myself, DOWN for some reason. I haven't quite pinpointed it, but have narrowed it down to too much worky, or not knowing what I am going to do once I graduate. You see, the dream is to have a good ol' 9-5 job straight out of college. I'd love that. I'm actually looking at the College Leadership Program that Kinko's offers. It's basically a management training program that sounds wonderful.
UNFORTUNATELY, there's a catch. Say that I was accepted into this. It would mean two whole months away from California in Dallas, Texas. I will miss my family, my friends, the California life, and most of all, my beloved Loc Loc. It would be hard, but I feel my relationship with everyone that I care about is strong enough to where that bond would just grow stronger if I left for a little bit.
So in conclusion, I seem to be worried about my future. I know I'm on the right track, so why do I find myself doubting...myself at times. Am I scared to move up in the world? Do I fear failure? Am I scared of growing up? Ya, it's all three.
A man a few weeks ago approached me at the gas station while I was on my way to work. I was of course in my Kinko's get up looking all professional. Me thinking the worst, thought he was some crazy old guy just looking to talk. But as we conversed, he started asking me what my major was, how I liked my job blah blah. He concluded with him saying he owned an e-commerce site and giving me his business card, telling me to call him when I'm ready. Now stupid me should have called him a few days later, but hesitated, scared of possible change. At the latest though, I will give him a call after I am done with school.
